Tuesday, February 27, 2007

This if for all the Girls....

Yes...another chain letter! It's not that I don't like chain letters...
I just don't have the time to continue passing them along.
But, I want you all to know that I do read them.....
Most of them anyway...hehehehe!
(HINT!) I know a few of my friends need to read this today....

Also, I would like to introduce you all to a wonderful new friend :) Karen could use some support from all you wonderful bloggers out there! http://anewbegining1.blogspot.com/ I have been touched deeply by her testimony of love and committment to overcome all that life has thrown her way....
This is for all the girls!!!!!

What's so poignant about this picture?

It shows a line of little girls holding hands facing the immensity of ocean waves.
Alone they might be washed away, but together they stand strong.
Thank you each for holding my hand somewhere along the way when I was facing a wave of my own. I hope you will reach for my hand when your own wave threatens.
All of us girls..
Old and young...
Near and far...
Hold special memories of good times we've shared.
We've had our share of hard times when our friends were there to make us feel better.
We've shared...
our hearts
our time
our secrets
our fears
our hopes
and our dreams.
Let us never break the chain of friends....

This chain letter is to all my special friends from around the world. Your words of encouragement help me daily.

So I say to you all...

"Thanks Sisters! May God hold you safe in his arms until we see each other again!"

(or for some of you).....

until we meet for the first time :) hehehehe

God bless,

Diana Joy

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Martina McBrides song "Anyway"

Here is the video I have been telling you all about. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

I'll do it anyway!!!

Hi everyone!

Here it is Saturday again. The week has gone by so quickly! When I woke up (at 4:30 a.m.) I turned on the light and began my daily routine of preparing for my usual week day....It wasn't until I was wide awake that I realized it was Saturday! LOL
I quickly jumped back in bed, put the blankets over my head and attempted to go to fall back into my dreamland! I was surprised when I woke up at 8:30am. I never sleep 12 hours! The busy week really did take a toll on my body. My week consists of working 9 hours, writing (the book with Sara) and taking care of the kids. Oh yeah and the 4 hours commuting to and from work. There never seems to be enough time in the day. On Saturday I make it a point to blog. I always try to contain all the details of my week in one post...however; it never seems to happen :).. we’ll see if I am successful today....

On Thursday night I was busy working on the book and these words kept repeating in my mind. "God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should,
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway!!!"

In the past year I have struggled writing because of what others thought of me. But, I have come to realize that it is not important how others view me, but what God has requested of me. Once again the truth that I must obey God has been a reality I now accept...
That is until my strong will takes hold again :(

A friend drew this for me a few years ago...and yes it is her view of me as a child!

Have you ever gone through a period of time in which you were convinced if you refused what God requests, that somehow He would give in and let you live your life the way you truly believed was best? Over the last six months I have (once again) refused to yield to God. Yet, everyday I would pray, “God please help me get out of this situation, and I will do what ever you ask of me”. Then as soon as the coast was clear, I would take over the wheel of my life and continue down the road that I had chosen. Oh man! I just realized my children aren’t like me...I am like them!!! How embarrassing! I am an adult, yet, I continue to act like a child!
It is a good thing God has a sense of humor! LOL

But, after struggling with the bills, the kids disobeying, constant nightmares and many pouts of the stomach flu, I am going to do what He has requested. I am now working on my book and feeling a sense of relief!!! I know what you all must be thinking, “Here she goes again, talking about writing the book...making one promise after another...” But, with each new chapter I feel like screaming, “Yes! Thanks Lord! I knew we could do it God!”
I am (once again) aware that this book is not to please anyone here on earth; it is written because God sees those that need to be healed.....Those that are lonely, hopeless, and desperate for acceptance. This book is for the one person who happens to come across this blog or browse to the very back of a library. For those that refuse to pick up a bible because they feel ashamed may find hope through the pages I type...then see that it is safe to pick up the bible and come to the realization that God was there throughout the most difficult times of their lives.

Well, enough of the talk about the book...
This song is so inspiring! I can’t wait for it to come out in the store!!!!

Martina McBride

You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy and it's hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and in a moment they can choose to walk away
Love them anyway

God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in that tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway, sing it anyway

I sing, I dream, I love, anyway
God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway!

Do it for God! I pray you find strength in these words :)

God bless!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

The sun is shining and so am I !!!

My computer keeps freezing! I wanted to share some of what is going on with me (in the last post). Here is the verse that inspired the last post (Dedication to Gale). "Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him to help you do it, and he will."(Psalm 37:5)
I want everyone to know that I am now working on the book on Tues. & Wed. I feel that a big part of me is healing.
Either blogger isn't working today or it is my system. Because my posts are not getting published.
Also, I can't download any wonderful pictures :( I will try again later...
I have missed everyone sooooo much! Savannah and I are going out to the movies for some mother and daughter time :)
It amazes me how working on the book is once again helping me heal. Thank you for all your prayers!!! BTW 4 what its worth! Thank you for your support and for mentioning me in your last post:) It was so helpful to see what I was actually doing...hiding from my fears..and my pain. I had lost the meaning of who I was writing for and why....You always seem to uplift others despite the pain you are going through. Please know that I pray for you daily:) I know I haven't been very supportive lately....I'm sorry for that. Now that I have adjusted to the long hours at work, I should be able to reach out to others :) And support them :)
I have to introduce you all to my new friends from China. Vicky and Joey have been writing me for some time. It has been such a joy to know that someone sooooo far away has been able to teach me so much. I can't seem to find the links and add them to my blog...perhaps later...
Work is going great. I am definitely learning what it is like to work in a large office with a ton of people. I must say that life is never boring:D I believe that going to work was just what I needed to inspire me to write again. Everyone is so supportive! The sun is shining here in Denver! Just as the earth starts to bloom, I feel a part of me coming back to life. God is an awesome God! Thanks so much for staying faithful to my blog and me :)
Let's see if this post actually gets published....
God bless you all!
Please pray for a fellow blogger? I just want her to know that I am sorry for being so busy and not posting much lately. I do not want to offend anyone. My goal is just like other bloggers...to share what is happening in my life...The good and the bad. I never want to appear selfish or not caring....Please forgive me :)
Bye for now...
Let's see if this get's published...hehehe
These words were written when I realized God had a plan for my life. I have never forgotten the plan...but, the pain of losing the most important man in my life has caused me to run from what the Lord has requested of me....Please pray as I return to the path that He has set for my life. Also, pray for me to find healing with each word I type...
These words are written for you Gale....

I dedicate this book to a special person who had a mission. This is a man who looked at a small, nappy haired, angry child and felt her pain. Through one man, many unseen children have been seen. I need to say, “Thank you Gale for loving me!” You have and will continue to be a reminder of the true picture of Christ. You judge no one and welcome all into your house. To this day the first question you ask me is always the same, “How’s your mother, and the rest of your siblings"? Your unconditional acceptance is the gift you have passed down to me. With honor, I will embrace all the lessons I have learned. I pray I can walk in the footsteps you have walked. Through working with many unseen children, I can only imagine the pain you must have felt when I refused your love or trust through the years. The many nights when it would have been better to sleep in a warm bed, I would choose to be cold and alone. I witnessed your tears when the attempt to rescue me from more abuse was impossible. You waited patiently for me to return when I ran from you. You hurt for me when I refused to tell the secrets that could have stopped the abuse. Gale, I want you to know that I am thankful for many attempts to protect me. Love was always a feeling I longed for, but never thought I deserved. But the love in your eyes would replace the doubt I had in myself. I now know that you honored my fears and never gave me any reason to question your unconditional love. Your smile caused me to feel pure and special. With your eyes, I felt hope in my future. But, as I would walk away that feeling would soon be forgotten. After twenty five years you were still there. So much time would come and go, but yet the longing to see the acceptance in your eyes would continue to lie deep within me. When I was facing death at thirty eight, I ran to you. Feeling embarrassed by my cane, and my small fragile body, I struggled to walk up the sidewalk of the same blue house, once again you were there. This was one of the very few times in my life I aloud you to hold me. As your warms arms comforted me I felt hope again.

At this time in your life, as you watch your wife slip away, I see your pain and feel your loss. Tears swell up inside me as I see your helplessness. I respect you and know the pain is too hard to put into words. I see your sorrow and will now be there. I want to remind you of the words you spoke to me on the day when I felt alone with my illness and ran to you for comfort. I felt hopeless as I dropped my cane. You quickly wrapped your arms around me and said with tears in your eyes," Diana, if you go before I do, then wait for me at the gate of Heaven? If I go before you, I will be there to welcome you with open arms". All the pain will be forgotten and we will rejoice!" Gale you are the father I have always wanted and I say this to you. I know you will be leaving me here on this earth, but I rejoice at the moment you greet me in Heaven!!! It is because you obeyed God and were committed to look into the eyes of the unseen children of this world that I am committed that through this one unseen child your mission will continue....