Friday, February 19, 2010

I love living life! I am happy!

This has been a short week for me....I don't even know where the time went. But many months leading up to this week I have been living day to day. The reality is that I have been struggling with headaches and heart spasms. Over the last month I have spoken with a few Brain specialists. I wish I could say this is the first time I have had to face doctors begging for answers…
Unfortunately, 10 years ago I found myself sitting in front of a doctor who told me I needed brain surgery. It seemed like just a few days and I was already scheduled for the day that would change my life forever. I could go in to detail about those years….but, the one thing I remember most is when the physical therapist told me to walk and I kept falling. I was crying and she said, “Diana, you don’t need to walk a mile…or a block…just take one step at a time…put one foot in front of the other. It wasn’t the surgery that changed my life….it was the image of putting one foot in front of the other and eventually you will get there. So simple…but for me at times it has been extremely difficult. Perhaps you are going through something very difficult in your life. Like the loss of a job, an illness, or loss of a child. And some days you may feel like you can’t even get out of bed….I hope that you remember this post =-)! Just put one foot in front of the other and eventually you will get there!
I met with a wonderful doctor who took the time to put my heart at rest. Isn't it amazing how it just takes one person to look into your eyes, take time to tell you exactly what you have and then tell you, "It's going to be ok Diana! You don’t have to have brain surgery". It changes your day...or most importantly your life. God is so great, on Tuesday this doctor found out what all the others doctors couldn't and I am now on my road to recovery. My head is not hurting as often and the chest pain is less every day. God answered my prayer by giving me that one person who would calm my fears! I’m already feeling better!!! So, tomorrow I will get up with a smile…because I know that God gives me the ability to take one day at a time, one step at a time, and the gift of helping one child at a time through all the wonderful people who took the time to care throughout my life.
I hope my story inspires you to hang in there when things get tough. I was sent this through twitter just about the same time I was meeting with the doctor. Boy does he put life in to perspective! This post is for all of you who think you cannot take another step…those of you who are suffering in silence….those who are unseen….
Check out this video!
God bless you all!
Diana Joy

Proverbs 23:18
There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Note to God.....

It has been such an emotional week! Some of my closest friends and family members have called me screaming!
I don’t think they realized that they were yelling at me….It was just that I happen to be in the way as they were loudly telling the world how angry and afraid they were. I would be lying if I told you that I handled myself with grace and control over the last few days. I have to confess that my family received the wrath of all of my fears and frustrations regarding our future this week as well.
This afternoon after some of the chaos had dissipated; I realized that the one person who should be educated on what’s going in the world was not called upon. So, when the phone stopped ringing and the house finally became silent I began to write a letter to the big guy upstairs…..Yep! That’s right! It was time to tell God a few things that He must have missed while making His rounds through our neighborhood.
As I began to write I could feel the anger building inside me! So the first words I wrote were, “Where are you God!” Then I put down the pen and said, “Now Lord, I don’t want to tell you how to run the world….but, well you had better get down here and help me with these endless medical bills, make sure my husband isn’t the next one to be let go from his company and give me some peace from all the yelling!” (At this point I realized I was the only one screaming)…Within minutes my emotions went from anger to fear! My heart pounded as I started to think of what could happen to me and my loved ones if God didn’t stop the madness! And it was only after I allowed myself to feel the fear that the tears started to flow and I went from telling God how He needed to run the world to crying out to the Lord to rescue my family and friends from the overwhelming fear that lingers from house to house throughout our city. At this point I bowed my head and prayed, “God there is so many hurting children on the streets and parents suffering because they can’t afford to get medical care for their family because they too have no job. Lord help them…help us all”
When I opened my Bible I went directly to the words a special man read to me when I was young and living in fear, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:6-7)

Because I truly believe that God uses music to speak to us, I will post this video as well. This girls name is Charice. She expresses so much emotion throughout the song! I love it!!!!