Monday, February 25, 2008

Thanks for all your prayers!!!

Hi Everyone!
I apologize for not getting back to you all sooner. I wanted to blog... But, I'm not gonna lie...It's been a tough few weeks....
I am doing much better now. My spirits are high and I am now working like crazy on the book! Sara and I hope to hand it to Advantage Publishers by Monday!!!! PRAISE GOD!!! There is a light at the end of the tunnel!!! :o) PLEASE KEEP PRAYING FOR THIS BOOK! I was talking to my husband the other day and as we were discussing the details of the book, I found myself saying, "All I know is that God has asked me to share my life for that one person out there waiting to hear about how God can heal! And I can't wait to say to God...IT IS FINISHED!!!" There are no words powerful enough to explain how much joy I feel the closer I get to the conclusion of the book!!!! No matter what the Doctors say about my body....I feel like I am healing from deep within my soul!!!
I don't want to ignore the fact that some of you have come to my blog daily and sent e-mails asking if I am ok and what is wrong. So to not address it is wrong. Over the last month a song has been repeating in my mind. Those words sure apply to my life now...
The words are "What do you say in a moment like this? When you can't find the words to tell it like it is. Just close your eyes and let your heart lead the way
Oh what do you say...
So, I guess I will just let my heart lead the way.....
The Doctors told me that I have Lipoprotien-a and Cerebral cavernous malformations. I am not sure what all of this means? Please be patient with me? I have had so many Doctors throwing so much information at me that my husband and I have taken a break and decided to give it to God. I will show you one the pictures the Doctors have shown me. And give you a general definition of the illness...By-the-way the surgeon put the red on the MRI to point out where the bleeding is beginning. I have to giggle because at first I thought the MRI was now in color! lol The hole is a "Cerebral cavernous malformation".
Here is the upper right part of my brain....One of my kids said, "Mom, it's okay...we always knew you had a few holes in your head". lol I don't want to make light of it...but, sometimes that is the only way I can get through all of this :)

The dark cavity is where I have bleeding....I have two more at the bottom of my brain. One on the right and one on the left. It looks like I will be going back in for brain surgery....but the doctors said I have to get stable from heart surgery....Only God knows what could happen between now and then :) God can heal!!! I want you all to know that my head does not hurt at all and I am feeling much better. Lipoprotien-a is when the lipid levels in your blood are too high and it can cause clotting. The highest it can go is 30...well my levels are over 200! This means that my blood is clotting in places (like my heart) and bleeding in places (like my brain). Right now I would appreciate a lot of prayers :) But, for now life is back to the usual...I am back at work (Edward Jones) and working on the book (of course). I also want to say thanks to all those wonderful people who work for Edward Jones :) Their positive attitude and support has been more than I could ask for. Well....I need to get going....Dave turns 45 tomorrow and he wants to go out as a family. I need to get on the phone and make sure everybody doesn't forget!
Diane your wonderful for keeping everybody up to date :) Thanks!!!!! (BIG HUG))
God bless you all!
Diana Joy